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Saturday, September 29, 2012

☮ I miss you


27/9/2012 You leave us.

Visited you yesterday.
You lied in the coffin, with no sounds, no breathing.
I cried when I saw you. 
I miss you and I don't trust that you are gone forever.
I really can't accept that you left us.
Every time when I reached my class, I always saw you were sitting inside.
Friday morning when I reached the class, I can't find you.
Where are you Gabriel?
The only mixed guy in my class.
Mixed with Indian and Dutch. 
He had a green eyes. 
He was the monitor of my class.
I know him for 4 years and classmate for 4 years.
I wonder how I am going to accept the fact that I can't see him anymore.
I never know how am I gonna feel if I lose a friend forever.
Every time when I am alone, I will think of you.
Why you leave Gabriel?
Don't you feel cruel? :(
Will you miss us? 
Will you come back and meet us?
Where are you Gabriel?

I can't handle when I saw your seat is empty.
What is in your mind right now Gabriel?
Did you think of us?
Did you feel not willing to leave us?
Did you miss us?
Do you know, as a penolong, I do really miss you.
I miss your responsibility, I miss your smile.
I miss your hello, I miss your bye.
I miss the "mushroom head" that you used to say to me.
No more. Everything gone just because you leave.
When I fill in the diary class every morning, I feel sad.
16 of us become 15 of us. 
How can it be?
Just want to say, may you rest in peace.

Gabriel, don't forget to bless your family and your friends.
They do really sad and hurt when they know the news.
Especially your best friend.
You know who I mean. 
Please do bless them.
And, we will never forget you.
I love you as friend for ever. 

:')